I then proceeded to notice things I told myself could be better and suddenly my family started letting me know that we could give more and hadn't done enough. My inner voice and feelings told me I wasn't enough and I felt like I could give them everything and I could fall dead on the ground and they would still desire more. Have you been there??? I used to feel like I could bleed and never die and just keep on bleeding to feed them and they would never stop sucking and start realizing their own strength. I haven't felt this way in quite a while, especially not with my family. So today I am looking at embracing my Goddess, surrendering my desiring to be perfect according to others, give my imperfect self to the Great Mother's embrace, and celebrate that I am only perfect within myself and loving all of myself. Going back to noticing what I am feeling and desiring first and making that my guidepost, not what others want and they are feeling. I knew none of this had anything to do with them, only my old patterns brought up to be loved and honored and shadow shifted.
I love shadow shifting. it is so filled with grace and love and no demands. Today I am opening and receiving the gift of shadow shifting and standing again in my Goddess vortex and letting the energy do it's creating. I wonder what it will bring??? What new Christmas presents are coming my way??
Today it is snowing all day and Rick and I are home alone in such peace and solitude after the last two days of so much flurry and activity and connection with family and friends. Life is so full and rich in the silence as well as the commotion and activity. I love Christmas!!